Here is where I lose what few readers I have. I have a dog. But I do not want to own a dog.
We got the dog when there were more people who pledged to take care of it. They left, now we're left with a dog who looks cute but has so many social/emotional problems and seemingly small physical problems that add up to a whole lotta money. I know I'd never be able to forgive myself for taking an animal back to the shelter (even after almost 5 years!) but the husband loves it so, so, so much. The dog reminds me often that I am not sure I want children.
How does this have to do with the blog? Other than sharing a "whining" tag? Like an infant, the dog has killed our nightlife, weekend trips, day trips, everything. We have very few people who can watch the dog because it has so many things that may go wrong, and we can't afford to board too much. I've always wanted a fence to leave the dog in (and maybe a hole in the fence? with a trail of cheese leading far, far away?) but we thought we wouldn't be around very long. And building a fence is a committment! And then winter would approach, so what was the point of building it now? And another 6 months would pass, and we'd still be shackled to man's best friend. This was not my best friend.
There was a nice day in spring, a neighbor had some fencing material, and over a period of a week, we got a makeshift fence up. I was elated. We could leave the house for more than three hours. My husband wouldn't be shackled to the couch to do his research. Maybe we could save the money we spent each week for her "social day" at the dog place. I thought maybe we could have the romantic little day trips we used to enjoy so much when we first got together.
But she was itchy, so the vet gave her a shot and I spent a day mowing, clearing brush, spraying the yard, etc. Still itchy. More baths, more shots, now some antibiotics, more spraying, more trips to Lowe's for pesticides (that I NEVER in my life thought I would buy), more bald spots and infections.
So, I'm looking forward to going home to the new bald spot and constantly scratching dog, and in a few days I'll probably have to take her to the vet after work and drop $60 on a visit and some pills. Should I buy some more pesticide to spray? Or should I just tear down the fence with my bare hands and have a breakdown?
[UPDATE] I have taken a deep breath, and am looking forward to my sewing class. It's all I can do.