I'm back! No, I did not succumb to despair, but rather threw myself into activities that properly distract and enthuse me. That plan is working out splendidly.
As for the job front, there was a sad lull after I found out the latest job prospect was being scrapped. My spouse tried pretty hard to work a whole lot and spend whatever time he had with me being the sweetest ever. A few days ago, he found a rumor about another job in NewTownX, one that he knows through some high academic muckamucks. So, he actually emailed the professor in charge and asked about something. Took initiative! Tested the waters! This gives me hope. And he seems excited about the research and is just waiting to see if the position will solidify (they're currently waiting on funding, but pretty sure). I know I shouldn't get excited, that there are other lovely, brilliant people (with lovely brilliant spouses) applying for the same thing. I just like having something to chew on.
In my own job front, I'm bracing myself for the start of a new semester. I work on a University campus, and employ student workers. All summer I've spent my breaks and lunches peacefully on a bench in the shade, but now that will all be obliterated by horny, loud, excited and idealistic students, lured to join various activities and groups by horrible music (also horribly un-diverse) and the grilled meats I can't eat. No one ever remembers the vegetarians during free food week. Except the pizza places. Thanks free pizza people.
This is the time of year where I really shine, that's really hard, and really tires me out. All I am doing is training, training, training. I can focus on that and power ahead, and when I don't have anything immediate to do, I don't feel guilty about seriously lazing. I lose my voice during these weeks from so much talking. I've got a handful of completely new people to turn into fantastic representatives of my organization. I usually succeed at this, but I don't want to rest on my laurels.
Shout out to Alison Green of the Ask a Manager blog. She's given me some great advice for what I'm doing now, and also about how I'm going to go about in my next job. Reading this blog helps me remember that my job can actually be something that makes me feel good. This may sound dorky, but I probably recommend this blog more than any other. That may also be because I'm of the age where my peers are almost always thinking about job stuff.
So, with an end looming near, you are probably thinking that I am just winging it. You are only sort of wrong. It's hard for me to put in 100% for so many reasons. But for all the things I hate about my job I love that I do what I do well, people recognize that, and we're well-known for a great training infrastructure. I'd like to keep that reputation until far after I'm gone.
We had dinner with another couple a few days ago, who are sort of similar to our situtation. The husband is a grad student in a close field to my own husband's, and the wife works closely with the University but not in academia. Unlike me, she got a degree in something useful, but is looking to get into something new. It ocurred to me last night that maybe she would be a good person to talk to about all this, so I'll update after I get in touch with her again. This seems like a great excuse for a happy hour drink.
So, things are good. And I don't mean for now.